Dearest Mama | 6 Months

 6 months today, Mama. this week I keep replaying that last day over and over in my head. How did I not even have a clue that when they took you down to surgery that there was a real possibly  you might not be coming back.

I just want to relive that last week with you. I want to relive that morning in the ER before they took you down to surgery, because I would have begged for more time with you.

I miss you so much, Mama. I'm so lost without you. There are so many things that I have to talk to you about and you're not here. 6 months into this grief thing and I still can't believe you are not here, Mama. It just kills me you're not here. 

xoxoxo