Fear...

Life is hard, one minute everything is perfect and the next it is a disaster. it's hard to switch your emotions from happy and content to miserable and taking everything you have to literally crawl out of bed in the morning to face yet another day of the unknown. and the voices in my head, they never stop. constantly racing through as if they are on an emotional roller coaster ride. if i could just shut them up for one hour - one hour of peace from all the madness but instead i shove them deep inside and bury them in a place of my heart simply because i  cannot deal with them.

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so i trudge thru the day doing all the familiar mundane  things that need to be done and hoping for the voices to stop, and try to live in the moment, to appreciate the wonderful things that god has given me. i have many things to be grateful for so instead i try and focus on those and live in the good moments instead of dealing with the good and the bad. i know one day i will have to face those demons and then everything will be exposed. sigh. one day soon. 

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fear of the unknown is  a scary thing. instead of living and playing the character in our story, we hide in misery and fear because its comfortable, familiar and the unknown is too frightening to face; especially alone. the 'what ifs' consume us and hold us back. they hold us back from enjoying life, from living life to the fullest and from embracing all that we could be. we want things simple and uncomplicated so we just settle into our misery like a comfortable chair and all the while our story is being untold. truth is, we hold ourselves back because of the fear of the unknown.   

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Who knows what we could become and all the possibilities that would be presented to us if we just embraced the fear and ran with it....

XOXO