today is this day....

drinking hazelnut coffee 

headphones on are repeat with this song all day long

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these days im choosing my words conscientiously

im tasting them, letting them sit on my tongue awhile before  spewing them out

there are so many words in the human language and just one

can bring a mixed bag of emotions

heartache, happinesss. frustration.  giddiness

anger

its getting harder and harder to find the right one to pick on any given occasion ....

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as many words as there are, you'd think you'd never be at a loss for one...but i am

many times...many days

i wish i could say that ive got the perfect word to ease someones pain

when a friend is laying on her death bed and looks at me with tears

streaming down her face and ask...

"Why Me"

i lower my head  and enclose her bony hand into mine (its cold)

no words come

at least not one that i can give her that will ease her discomfort and questions....

i feel bitterness at the cancer that is taking a little piece of this woman more and more everyday

and leaving her less and less of flesh and bone...

and more and more of the shell of a body

wasting away

slowly, and agonizing

to watch....

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on a brighter side every day is one day closer to Spring!

 and im trying to hurry and get through as many books as i can before the nice weather comes rolling in.....

XOXO