Day 5

i see her

over there hiding in the shadows

the darkness pulling her in..

she's mystic and unsure

her gypsy soul wanting to take flight into the night

she steadies herself and sucks in her shaky breathe

her heart slowly untangling and unraveling

years of doubts and fears that have

chained her inside a wall of darkness 

are screaming for release.

its time...

she lets the words roll around her tongue

slowly, deliberately, over and over again

as if she's trying to convince her mind

as much as her heart is 

its bitter and cold

and the emptiness consumes her

a new dawn is breaking

she turns around the corner

and finds her familiar way

back to the craziness....

(c) Kelly J Petersen

Thursday is (day 5)

a crow flying by and coffee on the porch

a robin perched on the neighbors roof

a warm breeze today - its nice brushing across my bare skin

rustling the trees and droplets of water hitting the ground from the early morning rain...

the sky is covered in grey today

and white butterflies are dancing in the back yard

its one month today....
today playing on my headphones is
You & Tequila

today i know:
that i feel like the weather. raindrops slamming against the window panes, softly at first and then more urgently, hard, wet and with a angry  force.
the burden is heavy so i am laying it down today and just enjoy 'being' i want to close my weary eyes and not think, just breath in my surroundings and to feel joy in my soul as i smell the chicken that is cooking in the kitchen. as i glance at the twinkling lights on the shelf under my TV. as i glance at the photograph of my daughter, Caitlin in the foyer and that day comes rushing back in full force. the smell of spring that was emerging from the ground that day as the gusty winds danced with her hair and left a pink rosy glow upon her young face.
im comforted today as i lay on the couch with my journal, books and pens. its big and soft and cozy and it envelopes me as if a big hug would from a cherished loved one.