........Sunday is...........

waking up to gorgeous sun filtering through the curtains and warming my face....

was under the weather yesterday but feeling much better today....

catching up on blogs and playing with "mood boards" drinking hazelnut iced coffee this morning....

my mood is cheerful, positive and looking forward to where im heading....

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its smells like Spring today...last night i left my bedroom window open a crack and let the cool air stream in across bare legs....

i even noticed a little spring in callie's step today as if she knows that spring is right around the corner and like me is anticipating it....

(  Friday)

i walked into the family room and she is curled on the couch a thin blanket draped across her shoulders. i run my hand over her back and she is skin protruding over bones....

her face is scrunched up in pain...

i ask her what her pain level is on a scale of 1 to 10, she looks up at me with sunken eyes and pale skin. its a 9 miss lady.....

she calls me miss lady....she always has....
i ask her how many pain pills she has had, she replies she just took 2. i go over her medication list and give her another one. she is allowed to take 3 every 4 hours....she's waiting on her morphine patches, waiting for the insurance to approve them.....really.....the woman has terminal cancer....insurance companies,  i hate them.....

she doesn't like people to fuss over her as if that will make her disease less terminal....

every now and then a lone tear will slide down from the corner of her eye...but she quickly wipes it away with the corner of the blanket hoping we won't notice....

i hate Cancer

i hate what it takes from a person

it has taken all her feminine qualities

it has taken her beautiful locks of hair

but one thing it hasn't taken and never can is her

fighting spirit.....

XOXO