Real....Monday....

getting up late and having to rush to pick up caitlin

i don't like to be rushed when i get up in the morning. i like to sit and savor my coffee, open the back door and breath in the smell of spring which was in abundance today!  my heart is so giddy with excitement when spring arrives. i was sitting in the living room and i  heard the birds today (my heart fluttered a  bit) ...i think they were out rejoicing as well....basking in the sunshine and warmer temps, singing...Spring is here.....

the wind blown hair

the snooty nose and the dribble running down his chin.... his 2 little front teeth

this is life

 it doesn't get any sweeter than this....

this is real today...

not the stack of bills sitting beside me on my desk

not a friend of mine who is dying

(it doesn't seem fair to be dying when everything else is spurting in growth.)

not having to be fifty million places at once

the love i felt from hugging a friend today

that was real....

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 looking as this little guys face and wanting to feel

 the joy and the good in life....(again)

searching for its meaning and knowing that it has one

this little guy doesn't have any worries....i want to feel like that

i want to run with the wind

and not look back

i want to start my life over, knowing everything i know now

that little snippets of life are scattered into moments

and they are gone all too quickly

and if you don't live in the moment

you're not living

and its a time space that you can never get back....

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I want to go back to thinking that people where good

and honest and had compassion

that there was kindness in the world....

i want to go back to the simple times

when i was growing up and everything was perfect

and when someone made a promise they kept it

i want to go back to a time when technology wasn't so advanced.

im guilty of staying on the computer too long and getting caught up in the drama

of facebook and panic sets in if i can't find my cell phone....

too many things to figure out today

and none of it is real

today....

XOXO