Dog-End Days of Summer....

we are half way through august already, unbelieveable 

its true, the older you get, the faster time goes by.

we are now in the dog end days of summer, im glad.

im ready to say good-bye to air-conditioning running full speed with never a break

im ready to say good-bye to hot sweltering days where my make-up runs off faster than it took me to put it on....

im ready for cooling breezes to sweep across my bare legs at night

open windows and doors

the sound of crunching leaves underfoot and tumbling down the street 

fresh picked apples off the trees and home made apple pie....

yup..definitely ready for Autumn.

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my mind has been with another mother this week. a friend of mine. our boys grew up together and we're best friends. Charles lived at my house as much as my son, Tyler lived over there.

thursday (August 18)  will mark 4 years that Charles  was shot in the head and murdered.

4 years and still no arrest has been made

4 years of seeing his mother's outcries and pain at the cruelty of her son being murdered and no justice

i see her anger, her bloodstained tears and the HUGE void  black hole it has left in her heart.

when my brain tries to process the whole thing, it  simply cannot. my heart cannot even travel there.

the achiness that never goes away, i cannot imagine facing that every day when the sun greets us to rise up; make the most of the day you've been given...

how to continue to live when there is a giant hole in your heart? when there is not enough kindness, laughter, compassion or even love to fill a hole that big....

i cannot process carrying that weight around day after day with no relief in sight.

tonight im loving on those i love and care about a little bit more

i try to do that every day

i try to remember that the problems i have are nothing compared to having someone i love being  ripped away from me.....

especially one of my children.

so tonight hug on your love ones a bit tighter

XOXOX