My Mama....

this is my Mama

next month she will be 90 years old....

my family has been so blessed to have her here with us this long

she is relatively healthy, she still has her own apartment, plays bridge twice a week

and still drives (although i take her to her doctors appointments and take her to run her errands as much as i can...it won't be much longer that she will be able to drive....

but all in all, for 90 years old she is doing great.

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sometimes i tend to not have enough patience with her. she has a hard time hearing so you have to scream everything you say and i get short handed with her, please forgive me mama for that.

she has a hard time keeping her medication straight and sometimes i think she drops them on the floor and won't find them till the next day.

her balance is not good and she falls a lot...but she is a stubborn german woman and refuses to use a walker, even though i have yelled at her numerous times for that...

her skin is loose and ghostly thin now

she suffers from arthritis in her hands and her fingers are deformed 

she is easily worn out and tires quickly

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i know i don't have the patience with her that i should, and I'm sorry Mama.

im going to work harder on that....

im going to try harder to understand what you going through

i don't imagine it is easy not being able to do a lot of things you were able to do when you were younger...

watching a parent grow old is hard....but i imagine it is harder for her....

i'm sorry mama for the times i didn't have patience with you

when i was short-tempered because i had to repeat everything two or three times....

im sorry for walking faster than your little tired legs could keep up with....

im sorry for getting irritable when i have to explain things to you 

multiple times because your brain can't comprehend things as fast as you use too be able to.
im sorry Mama. 

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i love you Mama

XOXO