January

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winter has finally shown up, although she was quite late this year and although i hate the freezing cold there is no denying her simpleness, her quietness, and her stunning beauty that takes away my breath with every first snowfall.

im stuck in the house more these days and the alley is full of blocks of ice ruts...

january.....ive never liked her....she's unpredictable 

cold, and blue...things get more settled after the holidays, the excitement is gone

the house is bare and im often feeling lost and alone in january

buried deep inside the house, inside my soul waiting for her to exit soon.

the days are so long...walking from room to room

peeking out the window every now and then

but only quiet remains

every now and then i'll hear a little chirp of a bird, but winter

remains quiet...still....

the cat is lost also. she walks around the house, from room to room

whining....as if she knows its january and spring is still too far away....

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there are things i could be doing around the house

but my heart is not in it

the kitchen curtains need taken down and washed

as well as the bathroom ones...

everyday i walk pass them and think, i need to wash those, but continue to breeze by them....

the will to write in my journal 

or to paint or snap photos is small....so i ignore her whisper (for now)

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i just want to hibernate until spring arrives....go crawl under my feather comforter and sleep...sleep until its time to fling open the windows and rush outside to greet the new season.

XOXOX