the smaller things

Hello 2016!

You ushered in quite cold with a temp of only 23 degrees and a bright sunny sky.

today i will be spending the day over at my Mama's, taking down her christmas tree and packing pretties away. we will have lunch from rudys (if they are open) and a quick visit before i have to head back home to start dinner.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

so many different things i want to accomplish in this brand new year.

i want to get published in bella grace magazine

spend more time with my mama

each new day i can see her health declining a tiny bit more

in september she will be 90 years old. im looking into getting her a cane

because her balance is way off, sometimes she stumbles around like she's drunk

and has been falling quite often lately. luckily its in her apartment and she lands on the carpet but im concerned about her falling out in public somewhere and seriously getting hurt.

her hearing is very bad now, but she can't afford a hearing aid. so i often times end up repeating myself quite frequently. its frustrating and sometimes i have to remind myself to have patience with her.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

there is such a let down after christmas and new years. it is often spent in anticipation of waiting for spring to get here but we've had a very mild winter. i hate the month of January for some reason. it always brings a sadness, a black cloud looming overhead. the days are long and more than often than not they are dark and  dreary

and night follows more quickly than id like

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

lately ive been in search of the smaller things

to let go of the bigger stuff and just cling onto the

simpleness of calm and quiet.

im trying to accept the fact that i cant save the world

or even one person in it

that there are some things i just cannot change

no matter how much i want too, the fact will remain

some things are unchangeable

and maybe for good reason.

maybe im not meant to have those things

maybe im meant to drift thru life one day at a time

instead of looking ahead into the future.

these days, im learning to live one small moment at a time

and i know now that that moment will pass swiftly...so i cling to it

i breathed it in and store the memory deep inside my heart

and i live that moment with everything i have

because there might not be another moment in time quite like that one.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

XOXO