Searching for the Light

i don't know how she can just show up and take over your life just like that. one minute you are fine, the next....BAM...you've lost control 

 she sneaks in quietly and takes over everything...your emotions, your mood

your day

everything is in her control.

i woke up this morning searching for the light...darkness has descended upon me...

and the sad thing is...i have no direct reason for it...

she just comes in and takes over...

then i let myself start to feel guilty 

there are people out there who are struggling with finances, sick loved ones, the loss of a loved one

thats the thing about her, depression, there can be no sound reason for her to creep into your head, your body, your soul...

you feel helpless

people who have never had to struggle with her, they look at you, judge your life and decide there is no reason you should be depression

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“That's the thing about depression: A human being can survive almost anything, as long as she sees the end in sight. But depression is so insidious, and it compounds daily, that it's impossible to ever see the end.” 
― Elizabeth Wurtzel, Prozac Nation

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“If you know someone who’s depressed, please resolve never to ask them why. Depression isn’t a straightforward response to a bad situation; depression just is, like the weather.

Try to understand the blackness, lethargy, hopelessness, and loneliness they’re going through. Be there for them when they come through the other side. It’s hard to be a friend to someone who’s depressed, but it is one of the kindest, noblest, and best things you will ever do.” 
― Stephen Fry

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I hope she doesn't get to cozy and stay for long this time....

XOXO