Things about me I bet you didn't know....

things about me:

i hate talking on the phone, i find it to be useless gossiping about other people, just say what you have to say with a text and be done with it....

deep conversations should be done face to face

i thought by now at my age i'd have pretty much everything figured out, but i don't. and it bothers me..i think too deep, maybe thats why i can't sleep at night because too many thoughts are racing thru my head...

i wish i could go back and redo the things i've done wrong

right the people i've hurt in my life by words or by actions....

i had no idea that when i started my photography business it would be so hard or take so long to get to the point that im at.

and i doubt myself 

...a lot...

i hardly ever cry, which i find amazing because i am the most sincere, caring, person that i know...i have tons of compassion for people and empathy

but few things can bring me to tears... 

i treasure my friendships way more than my friends do...i know it, i feel it. 

im the type of person that if you need a shoulder to cry on, im there, and i'll go through it with you as well.....

im in love with being 'in love' and i use to believe in happy endings....but not anymore...

no matter how much you try to convince yourself, people change, you change...it happens overnight, when you are sleeping and no one can see anything but the darkness....

you just wake up one day...and you are different....

and no matter what you can't change it....

im irritable ...a lot...over stupid things....things that shouldn't even matter, but somehow, they do...

i get frustrated when people don't understand how im feeling...i lay it all out there and yet they refuse to see it...i actually get angry because their thinking process is different than mine....and how can they not see that?

in the summer, i like to drive out to the country  and blare my favorite song on repeat...

open the windows and let the wind blow through my hair

i forget things things and sometimes if im multitasking, i have to really focus or i've been known to do some really stupid things. like throw money away, hide things and then forget where i put them....

ive excepted the fact that im not perfect, nor will i even come close...

i make mistakes... a lot of them

and i have regrets....

Regret clings to you like the stench of cigarette smoke, even though you never picked up the habit. Because regret only needs a moment to sink in, and days, even weeks to disperse.

Regret is the moment you realize the kiss you are sharing with someone is a half hearted attempt to silence your loneliness by occupying your lips with someone else’s.

Regret is the way a band aid tears, at the perfectly fine skin around a cut or burn, when you try to remove it. But, there’s no way to rip it off quickly. 

Regret is…

Rough thoughts, not finished, not even close. (Katherine Anne Keegan)

yeah, like those kind of regrets....
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I've just recently realized that the days are long but the years are short...and we are  not on this earth for that long of a time. not  enough time to figure things out, and that everyone goes through bad times. that the bad times will end, eventually, and you will have good, happy days again.
sometimes i like to be sad, i feel more than...im drawn to sad songs and can lose myself in them for a day...
and sometimes its okay to be sad, just don't stay there....