thoughts and ramblings....

the flowers from the summer garden are mostly gone now. autumn has swept in with her cooler temps and gray skies...no sun all week long, and thats okay....matches the way i've been feeling...

moody, absorbed into my inner self lately....

humans are a complicated species ....

i don't think i'll ever understand them, or myself for that matter....

at times i love selfishly...if only this person didn't do that, or he would do that

things would be easier

but maybe im fooling myself...

maybe not

i don't know anymore...maybe i expect too much from certain people...

maybe there is no wrong or right

it just is...

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another night of restless sleep...this is getting so tiring, not being able to sleep

to the people who lay there head on the pillow and are out in 2 minutes, you suck (just kidding) im jealous of that, i've never been able to do that. i've always had a problem with

sleeping, even as a child. i would climb into my twin bed in a room i shared with my twin sister. i would pull the covers up all the way to my chin, and stare at the ceiling for hours before sleep would finally come...she has never been my friend....sleep...

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the days are shorter now, the sun setting by 7pm...not near enough time to play hide and seek with the afternoon light...not anymore....

i want the world to make sense again

i want kindness and compassion towards one another
and most importantly
LOVE
love with your whole being 

XOXO