Real Life...

open windows today and the sun is playing peek a boo behind navy powered blue skies.

i took a day of rest yesterday  my overworked brain needed the reprieve so i refused to let negative thoughts enter, instead focusing  only on the positive .

caitlin and dallas came over for dinner. 

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i have not talked to her in 2 days. i tell myself i cannot do this anymore and i wonder where she gets the strength to continue on this death-beaten path. this roller-coaster of madness that she for some reason cannot escape. 

the years of drug abuse and  alcohol have stripped her of all common sense and she now floats in a non-believe world. 

i refuse to be sucked back inside. trapped. beaten. abused by her slinging hurtful words and actions.

and never an apology.

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its been a week today since caitlin moved out.

i don't know why kids think they know more than you. why do they have to learn everything the hard way? they think its so easy out there in the 'real' world. and now, things are not going well after only  one week. my gut tells me she will be coming home soon.

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september will be here in 2 days. oh how i've longed for her breezy days and cooler nights.

i hope things will calm down and she will be  carefree so that i may relax and enjoy her this season.

we shall see.

im full of hope today.

XOXO