.yesterday.

it was yesterday, early afternoon

i drove over and she came out and got in the car.

tension was thick between us as  sometimes can get, 

lately more often than not.

way past are our days of hanging out together

sleep-overs with the kids'

and daily talks 3 or 4 times.

she says something, and i snap at her. quickly.

i can feel the tension in my body tighten up

you would think at this stage in our life

we would be over all this

but anger still lingers deep inside of me

i thought i had moved past it, but i guess not.

she's disappointed me, once again.

 for the millionth time

and im bone tired of twirling on the same merry-go-round

it always ends the same way.

i want to get off but that attachment

holds me still

that umbilical cord still remains

between us

im weary, bone-tired weary.