still clinging to august...

woke up to a stiff neck and migraine. i feel as if im carrying the bulk of this summer on my shoulders  its exhausting. im weary. my soul is bone-tired. and my brain is on auto-pilot.

this summer has not been a good one for me, its been one thing after another with sickness, family troubles, my sisters drinking, this season has been a long one and im ready for it to pass.

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im ready for autumn days and cooler nights

days down at the river and warm tea before bed

movie marathons in front of the fire and

sliding beneath warm down comforters...

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the dog end days of august feel as if they will last forever. im ready for September but she is taking her time in coming...

the kids are once again back in school  and the leaves are just starting to turn color. soon they will float to the ground in a whisper until october winds blow in and scatter them into corners and plastered on windshields. the cicadas will be leaving soon, announcing the end of summer.

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tomorrow will be one week my baby girl moved out. the house feels empty and i still expect to open her bedroom door and see her in there. so many emotions to sort out there.

my heart feels a loss.

the cat feels her gone too and runs from room to room, stirring up dust bunnies hidden under beds and couches in search of her.

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when autumn comes, it will be easier, the days shorter and the nights longer for sleeping under mountains of quilts.

XOXO