Summer Mondays

woke up to grey skies today and the anticipation of getting to spend a few hours with my sweet girl, Teegie.  

 she just melts my heart and i can just rock her and gaze at her the whole time she is here. i want to treasure every moment i get with her because i know in a ghost of moment she will be growing up way too soon for me. 

i grazed on baby newness and kissing chunky cheeks for 3 hours.

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sat outside on the back porch during the solar eclipse today. it was almost eerie, it got dark for a few minutes and it seemed as if everything was silent. the cicadas were not belting out their afternoon lullabye, not one chirp from the birds, no planes overhead. the humidity clung against my skin like a heavy blanket and i sat in awe at the mass of the world.

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this summer i have been searching for silence. because i've had none. my whole routine has been off. this summer has been madness.

im aching for silent nights , the silence at 3am when i am restless and walk the floors in the dark.

the silence of  a photograph that stirs with emotion

the silence of  an empty house except for me. the silence of the tv being shut off after being on all day long. my soul is craving silence. 

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callie cat is howling at the door to be let out. i don't see much of her these days, she is jealous of Luna so she comes in to eat and drink and then she's back out again.

the doctor bills continue to come, plus dentist bills, and radiology bills as well. its getting so i hate to check the mailbox. i think i jinxed myself a couple of months ago when the bestie and i were having a conversation and i was telling her how i finally feel like ive moved beyond a mountain of being in debt. then BAM its doctor visits, tests, biopsies , stents, root canals all at once.

...still....im grateful...thankful for the blessings that God has placed in my life.

XOXO

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