the betweens of october and december...

thursday rolled in with gusty winds and cooler temps.

i've always though of november as lonely. as if she was an afterthought and casually dropped in between october and december...

another fitful and restless night, up pacing the floors at 4:30am....

surrounded only in darkness and the thoughts that spool through my head...

i don't want to have to think today

its too painful...so im going to close my eyes

and let the gusty wind take me where she will....

my soul is exhausted

i need some "happy"

XOXO