Friday is....
friday came before i knew it...
the weeks past swiftly now as summer starts to wind down. and even though it is warm today i have opted to spring open the windows and
turn off the air conditioning
every now and then a swift gusty breeze will blow in...it is much welcomed and refreshing...especially for the dog days of august...
the last of summer days are descending upon us and it won't be long until autumn ushers in cooler weather, and falling leaves...
the sky is light blue today, hazy and filled with pencil long clouds standing still...
the fan is blowing on my back however, it is filled with dust and the blades are coated in a layer of dark and dirty...
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today is...
closing a chapter in my life
moving forward and not looking back i assume...
unexpected... those unexpected twists and turns that life throws at you when you least expect them....
perhaps later some twirling with alayna underneath the coral sunset
as we let the breeze blow up underneath to brace our souls..and its
closing chapters on ghost whispers...
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funny how you think you know someone when in fact you do not know them at all....i guess we all have our dark sides that lurk underneath the happy..the parts of us that we try not to let anyone else see...the part we try to keep hidden but nonetheless
breaks to the surface anyways...
breaks to the surface anyways...
yes...i foresee a lot of changes coming
soon....im trying to brace for them...to accept them and most of all to find the beauty in them..
today has just turned around on a dime....
i don't know why i let she and her get to me...why do i let them take me down this same road over and over again....i'll never understand it...the ache i feel is like a crushed boulder sitting on my chest...and tears pricked at the back of my eyes...but i won't let the out...self loathing pounds thru my body as i sit bewildered by what just happened...but then again, i want to slap myself and say, "really"....why are you surprised by anything they do?
all i can do is shake my head...and wonder...why you do this to people who proclaim to love you..who are there for you..day after day...after day....im full of anger...anger at them...and anger at myself for still allowing it...
today has just turned around on a dime....
i don't know why i let she and her get to me...why do i let them take me down this same road over and over again....i'll never understand it...the ache i feel is like a crushed boulder sitting on my chest...and tears pricked at the back of my eyes...but i won't let the out...self loathing pounds thru my body as i sit bewildered by what just happened...but then again, i want to slap myself and say, "really"....why are you surprised by anything they do?
all i can do is shake my head...and wonder...why you do this to people who proclaim to love you..who are there for you..day after day...after day....im full of anger...anger at them...and anger at myself for still allowing it...
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XOXO
Sounds like you had a beautiful day, with the skies of blue, breezes blowing as time marches on. Sorry you are closing a chapter of your life, one never knows how long a chapter will last... we all hope they could last forever, but who knows the writers ultimate intent? Do we ever really know someone, completely? can we? or do we push boundaries until something breaks, some unforeseen weakness. Only then are we saddened by the result. Is it too late? only the writer knows. We ALL have our dark sides, every one of us. Even those who think they are the innocents.
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