WEDNESDAY IS....

waking up to chilly temps....and grabbing a sweater..our high today was 66 degrees, almost unheard of for august. but it was a nice reprieve. of the heat and heavy humidity that has plagued us for the last month.  i haven't been sleeping well  lately, every hour i seem to wake up, turn my head only to have the clock blaring in bold red numbers, its only been an hour since the last time i looked. i don't quite know what to make of it, the not sleeping...i thought when people got older they slept more

i know, its probably that pesky menopause playing with me again

i wish she would go away....she is leaving me all kinds of unwelcomed  gifts....hot flashes, weight gain, irritability....

not any good gifts of course.... 

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im been working on alot of things going on in my life right now....so many emotional changes come along with menopause....losing yourself for one was a biggie for me...im now trying to find out who i am at this stage in my life...what i want and where i want to be 5 years from now, not only with my business, but my personal life as well...

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im trying and pulling for myself everyday to be a better person, a better, 'me'.

im working on being kinder, smiling to strangers, being there for friends,

changing relationship roles, 

forgiving others as well as forgiving myself ...thats a struggle...im hard on myself

and need to remind myself daily that hey, i am worthy of love, i am human and i am going to make mistakes, sometimes big ones....but that doesn't mean im not a worthy person, that doesn't mean that im not loveable or kind or compassionate....

so im forgiving myself a lot these days

and when i lay down to go to sleep at night

i feel good about life, about me and the journey im on right now.

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of course a trip to paris would be a good idea right about now

....still.....

wishing....

someday....

XOXO